SB 1.6.27

Synonyms

gata-spṛhaḥ — [being] bereft of all cravings [spṛhāntara-śūnyaś ca san¹²²]; [and being already beforehand (pūrvata eva tu)]; vimadaḥ — prideless [free from the madness of bodily identification (vigataḥ mado deha-pāravaśya-rūpo yasya saḥ)¹²³]; vimatsaraḥ — [and] free from envy [toward other living beings (vigato matsaro bhūta-viṣayakaḥ)¹²⁴]; [I (aham)¹²⁵]; paryaṭan — roamed about; gām — the earth [pṛthivīm¹²⁶]; tuṣṭa-manāḥ — contented at heart; paṭhan — uttering [ceaselessly (anavarataṁ gṛṇan)¹²⁷]; nāmāni — the names; anantasya — of the unlimited One [Bhagavān]; hata-trapaḥ — having cast aside all reservation [tyakta-lajjaḥ san¹²⁸]; ca — and; smaran — remembering; guhyāni — [His] mysterious [gopyāni]; bhadrāṇi — [and] auspicious [most excellent (sarvottamāni)]; kṛtāni — deeds [(caritāni);¹²⁹ His līlās with His beloveds and other associates that are filled with the fundamentals of prema (preyasy ādibhiḥ saha prema-paripāṭīmaya līlāḥ), yet in accordance with my eligibility, only remembering them and not disclosing them openly (tāni tu yathādhikāraṁ smaran eva na tu prakāśayan)]; kālam pratīkṣan — while awaiting the moment [of my death and ascension, questioning, “When will the moment arrive when I will attain to His servitorship?” (sa kālo me kadā bhaviṣyati yatra tat-pārṣadatāṁ yāsyāmīti), and in this manner, anticipating the moment when I would become an associate of Bhagavān (bhagavat-pārṣado bhaviṣyāmi);¹³⁰ implying that I existed awaiting only the moment of the dawning of His mercy (kevalaṁ kālaṁ tat-kṛpāvasaraṁ pratīkṣamāṇo’haṁ babhūveti śeṣaḥ)].

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