SB 1.6.20
दिदृक्षुस्तदहं भूयः प्रणिधाय मनो हृदि ।
वीक्षमाणोऽपि नापश्यमवितृप्त इवातुरः ॥ २० ॥
वीक्षमाणोऽपि नापश्यमवितृप्त इवातुरः ॥ २० ॥
didṛkṣus tad ahaṁ bhūyaḥ praṇidhāya mano hṛdi
vīkṣamāṇo’pi nāpaśyam avitṛpta ivāturaḥ
vīkṣamāṇo’pi nāpaśyam avitṛpta ivāturaḥ
Synonyms
didṛkṣuḥ — anxious to see [draṣṭum icchuḥ70]; tat — that form [of Bhagavān (bhagavad-rūpam)71]; bhūyaḥ — again [punaḥ]; aham — I; praṇidhāya — concentrated [sthirīkṛtya72]; manaḥ — my mind; hṛdi — upon my heart; vīkṣamāṇaḥ api — yet although focused within [cintayan api]; na apaśyam — I could not see [Him]; [ata eva] avitṛptaḥ [abhavam73] — [and] was thus left feeling unfulfilled; āturaḥ iva — like a person in despair [vyākula ivābhavam74].
Translation
Anxious to see that form of Bhagavān again, I concentrated my mind upon my heart. Yet, although focused within, I could not see Him and was thus left feeling unfulfilled, like a person in despair.